Saturday, December 15, 2012

Forever Changed

I wrote this in response to the shooting in Connecticut that killed 27 people.

Having lost two children of my own, I understand the fragility of life. I try to rejoice and celebrate every moment that I have with my two girls. Not only do I tell them often that I love them, but I try to show them in everything that I do.

My heart is so saddened by yesterday’s shooting in Connecticut. I feel like a ripple went through the universe tearing into the mesh of mankind and humanity. The grief of so many parents, families and friends can be felt by all.
Years ago, I took this picture of Little One looking like a little imp with a dear friend that
I lost to cancer. Too wonderful a soul to have been taken so soon. No one should ever
feel the pain of losing someone they love too soon. For whatever reason.

I cry just thinking about the cowardice and instability of the young man who senselessly took innocent lives. If you don’t want to live, don’t take that option away from others. I know I shouldn’t wish ill upon others, but at this moment I do. I hope that if there is a hell, that he is in the worst one imaginable. It won’t take away the pain being felt, but it seems like there is a slight consolation in that thought.

I wish I could hug everyone affected by this horrible tragedy and make their hurt go away. Their lives are forever changed. As are ours. I can only hope that a new message is sent through the universe. A message of changing thoughts. Of delicate lives. Of kindness. Of peace and love for ourselves and others. A strong enough message felt by enough people that we can change the world. Yea. The world where I talk about fluffy bunnies and happy rainbows. Is that too much to hope for? Is that too much to ask?


  1. I too saddened by the horrific actions of this young man.My sweet boy will turn 6 on 12/24...the age of many of those gunned down at school.

    I have to a corner of my heart I feel a deep sadness for this kid.I blame the media, lack of gun control and in my mind untreated mental illness...not so much a kid, who came into the world not so different from my sweet Evan.

  2. Barbara-
    You write so vivid, heartfelt, honest and open. I love reading your posts.
    My thoughts are so scattered. Angered at the young man that killed senselessly. Why? What made him do it? Gun control? I think every school should have metal detectors, but the guy jumped in a window.
    I wish I could hug each parent affected by this. Where is God in this? I believe in Him. But WHY did HE allow this to happen?

  3. Thank you for your thoughts. It is such a sad happening in our lives. I can't help but tear up every time I still see something on tv about this tragedy. We may never know why he did this. Some things will never be answered. All we can do is appreciate and find joy in our lives and celebrate every moment we have on this earth. Hugs to you all.


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